Can I survive this

Is this how it feels every day. A alarm clock waking you up. A cold bed next to you. And you wonder, is it even bothering her. A while ago someone at least phoned and asked and tell you to have a nice day.
I was just sitting here working and a dr came in to speak to another and the conversation went "got this old lady who yust came in...total dementia, I really don''t want the admit her, that will be a total waste of resources",,,, "ok will do"..... "thanks, I owe you one" and you think ONE DAY THAT WILL BE ME and no one is gonna give a s..t.

And believe me it is not a bad place

Ll,people do care about you,we care about you..

I know that your facing a major hurdle,well quite a few,but when those hurdles have been dealt with,your life will improve in many ways..

Your still in the early days of decision,so everything is going to be raw,and you have some grieving to do before you can see positivity.
You have had to deal with someone who is in complete denial,and put herself before considering both of you,now you have to begin putting yourself first,that is your survival mode now.
You know that your divorce is not going to be easy,so I know your prepared for this,but nobody can prepare you for the emotional onslaught that will come,so that is why your survival mode has to kick in...

At the end of a marriage you do doubt if anybody cares,believe me they do,and they will,and eventually you may find a certain other,someone who you can depend on,someone who will be your best friend....

Life has many curve balls,and for me divorce is way up there amongst the worst,but in your workplace,just as in mine,it is not the worst..there are many who suffer so much more..

Just stay strong and positive,yes the conversation is going to be really hard,and then the prospect of her fleeing also,but you have found Wiki,and your amongst friends now...

Cwtchs
Afon x

Hi there.

You''re in the initial stage of grief which most of us here have been through. You''re in an unhappy place at the moment but believe me you will move on. On this forum you will find people who understand your feelings and who can offer comfort. Keep posting and develop your blog.

Do you have friends or family in whom you can confide? It''s important to talk and to get it out. We blokes have a nasty habit of bottling it up which isn''t healthy so don''t do that, find someone safe who cares and who will listen to you.

I don''t have the magic potion, divorce ripped the heart out of my life, it''s been a long road back and I ain''t there yet but I have discovered someone during the process, someone called me!

Hang on in there!

Cheers

Stay strong mate, I know exactly how you feel, I am going through it as well. I feel absolutely empty, like life isn''t worth living, but it is, this is just a chapter.

Just remember these:
"Life is a gift"
and
"no fate but what we make for ourselves"

i remember everyone saying the same to me and i didn''t believe it i just kept thinking you don''t understand but trust me 23 months in and i have never felt better, things are so much better, i have the odd day when i think a little too much but my life is unrecognisable and all for the good, for fear of repeating what everyone else has told you a million times, this will pass, it will get better and you will learn to really live again xxxx