When it gets bad for me

I know it is just at the beginning but what is worst of all, is if I accidently just see a picture of when all was going well, everybody happy, seeing our future together and just enjoying everything (like I saw now accidently about a holiday in US).

And you ask yourself...Do I really have the right to meet someone 13 years ago, and F up their life like this that no one has no where to turn. Do you have the right to do it, I mean honestly...
And this gets me in a verry depressed state, I know people tell me but remember your problems but unfortunately you have to ask and HOW MANY WERE ME? And there you had a happy person and in 13 years totally F up their lives. I can''t even work further now, I get too depressed !

Ll,if we thought we would have ended up where we are,none of us would have got married at all.Some marriages work out fine,but it takes 2 to make it work,and marriage is all about mutual respect also...

So in life you have to take chances with everything,and we took a chance with our spouses,just as they did with us,then sometimes it fails,but that does not mean we have all fxxxx up,it just means we learnt something..
I am in a place now where I firmly believe that some come into our lives for a reason,and for a specific time and this includes spouses...

Your at the start of your journey,and along with other worries,a new start in another part of the country,you have a lot going on,so its no wonder your feeling low,but hold on,brighter days are coming.

Cwtchs
Afon xx