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Hi there.. What a great site this is i have stumbled on!! I have just found out on Sunday that my beloved, caring, loving husband of 20 years has been having an affair for the past 3 months. This i found on a text message he had forgotten to delete on a night out. He had went on a boys night out and ended up coming home at 6am in the morning- having met up with his bitch. he honestly thought |I beleived him when he said he had been at a party with some friends!! When I found out I started to hit him with my stiletto andtold him to get out. He further rubbed salt in my wounds by telling me he loved her prior to leaving. Things had started to change in the relationship about 8 weeks ago (well what i noticed anyway), started to dress better, joined a gym, coming home late from work. Text book stuff that you hear all cheaters doing. My whole world had been shattered by this.
I thought we had a perfect life. he is a great guy and everyone around us ie family and friends are all devastated by this out of character behaviour. To cut a long story short, he phoned me last night to ask if he could come round to talk. I really needed to see him also as I ached so much for him. Our son (17) was staying with his nana. I stupidly let hi stay the night, We talked and cried and talked and cried until morning and has now begged for forgiveness. he cant stand what he had done and is begging to come back home.. I wish it was so easy, as the thought of not having him in my life terrifies me but the thought of letting him back into our lives and he hurts me again, scares me even more. He is willing to try anything, but Im so scared we will end up hurt again. Up until Sunday, my hubby has never stepped out of line, he really is a great bloke, hence how everyone cant believe what he has done, Im not saying out life was without problems as he mentioned earlier about our sex life, which there wasnt a lot of (my fault, hands up), but I said i would try harder as I didnt want to lose him. But as i was trying, he was still seeing this b**ch behind my back and coming home to me as normal. Its the whole lies and deceit, I cant get. He promises he will never step out of line again, but Im so scared..

Hi

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