a tough old year

hello, another casualty of love here!
been married for 9 years, but separated for 7 months now.
Ive got two little girls, 6 and 8, the youngest being autistic.
I think that among other things, 4 hours sleep (not always joined up) a night and depression for both my wife and I has simply worn us down.
Our youngest has no sense of danger, and alot of determination. Ive lost count of the number of doors I replaced or repaired over the last few years as a result of her kicking them to bits.
Work has been tough- had a pay freeze and competency review due to underperformance, which let to me having a nervous breakdown in September. I went into a hostel because being sedated & autism dont mix, but by the time I was ready to come home a few days later, my wife decided it was all over.
Im on the mend now and back at work, but feeling bitter about her choice of timing, which gave me a whole host of new problems to deal with- seems she wants it all amicable but only on her terms.
Im missing the kids like mad, but living as a lodger prevents me from having my youngest over (not my doors!) so I have bitten the bullet and bought myself a classic camper van so I can have some mini breaks with them.
I like outdoorsy stuff- if it involves mountains and wild weather, Im happy. Paperwork and drudgery?No thanks!

Good for you enjoy your time with the children and take things one day at a time when things get you down walk away chill out then look at it with fresh eyes.
Good Luck Keep smiling...............Lizi:)

Thanks Liz, thats exactly what Im trying to do each day. Doing up the van has helped, having a little project to do and its all for a good purpose!
(and if all goes really tight, Ive still got somewhere to live!