Just dipping my toe in...

Thanks for all the replies..sorry I've taken a while to get back..life just sort of went into overdrive for a while.

He must have known there was going to be a change in our relationship. He would have to have been deluded if he thought he could go through our marriage expecting so much compromise and then finally breeching my trust in such a big way ..would not not have consequences.

I feel like I've been through the wringer and back with trying to figure out when it all started going wrong.. and have to say that I have gone from feeling completely betrayed to being angry with myself for not seeing it coming.
I will never be so trusting in anyone again..I can se now that it is unfair and maybe puts too much pressure on people..and makes me too vulnerable.
So I have to take responsibility in some ways for US now reaching this stage as he did not do this totally by himself ..apart from his finale which broke the camels back emotionally,finacially and in every which way I can think of.

Despite us discussing seperating he still seems reluctant to move on and help himself while I'm still here to help him do it. We face a Christmas together but not.

Ah.. I don't like dwell. Let's just say it's hellish but I know it'll all get sorted. My only wish is that we can do it as amicably as possible for our children. It's going to be bad enough for thmm as it is.

Thanks for the support and have a Good Christmas.