Am I being taken for a fool

Hi all, lots of you hsve seen me in the chat room and have spoken to me and I often feel very guilty for taking up so much time when im feeling low as there are so much more people worse off then me. I feel so bad now and so lonely. Its all my fault. I allowed my estranged husband to come over late last night at his convenience of course (not mine) I had to wait till he had finished work. He works like 80 hours a week and never gets a day off. We had a few hours together and yes we talked....both decided that the divorce has to carry on....but for different reasons. Mine being the fact that during our short marriage, he never contributed anything...nothing! I paid all bills and also bailed him out of his financial difficulty. This is hard to write as have been drinking wine and crying, im so up and down. I feel used...we ended up in bed and yes it was very good but have I heard from him today...not a text or a call and I even sent him back with food and wine. God im such a stupid fool and im not worth talking too. Thats how i feel now. He is I think enjoying his single life, because he can. When he met me I was already set up with house, my own business etc. I have changed today my profile a little and my pic and cant risk being found here, but all you that have spoken to me before know who I am. Sorry for ranting...and sorry because I know there are a lot of people worse off than me which makes me feel guilty for taking up time.

(((((Saff)))))
You are a wonderful person, and I feel your pain. This man is hurting your self esteem, and you deserve a lot better. Can you spend time with friends?

I have been struggling with mood swings and a friend suggested St John's wort (herbal remedy - mild antidepressant) to help with my panic attacks and can't sleep - I've only taken it for a day but feel better already.
- I overslept today - first time in months.

So keep sharing the pain - it all helps

X

Dadsrus

hello Saffron 1968,
stop hating yourself,it happens to many couples who have split up or are already have.it's so easy to take comfort from the one person you were at your most comfortable with before.with a drop or two of wine and noeone else around it was either that or world war 3.I would say to you ,that was yesterday now let the guilt go and start a fresh day tommorrow.Perhaps if you wish to avoid a similar situation again then that's easily fixed by meeting at a mutually agreed time in a more public place if you both need to meet to discuss matters.don't worry, we all have huge highs and lows in our moods.take care.

Thank you Topaz...its great that so many people care on this site....i would be a total wreck now if i hadnt found this x

hi Dadsrus,
you're right about St John's Wort but you need to be certain that if you are on any other prescribed medication or over the counter medication that it is safe to take SO ALWAYS ASK YOUR DOC or pharmacist FIRST TO BE ON THE SAFE SIDE.

hi Saffron I agree,I always seem drawn to Wikki when I'm feeling down or just gone through another emotional bludgeoning by my x.I've learnt over the past year that's when you feel the need to talk to someone the most and yes it does get you through some pretty bad hours.I always feel better able to cope afterwards until the next round.I can honestly say though as time passes you can feel yourself gaining in strength and it will get you through this.everyone who responds when we post helps us through another testing time. I'd never have got through this myself so far without the kindness,and support from other wikki members.

Hi Saffron68,

Dont feel guilty that you are taking time when you are feeling low; yes it may be true others are worse off than you in some ways but you are going through much pain, pain that unites us you, your new friends and friends yet to be on wiki. There is much love on wiki so please feel free to rant as much as you like.

I do hope you find the courage to get over this and move on this song seems appropiate to you, me and lot of people on wiki. (Hope you dont cry too much!)



Now move on girl listen to:-



I hope this makes you smile..

Lol your Wiki friend