9 months on hello this is me

I joined this great site on Christmas eve. My husband of 31year who I had been with since I was 16 left me on 22 November. I had no idea that he wasn't happy I thought I had it all and loved him and the life we had together.
He gave me an hours notice that he was leaving and wanted a divorce. Nobody else involved it was all my fault.
Two weeks later I found out about his affair.
Since then he has been awful and I guess I have to. I have been in the deepest darkest hole and I didn't know it was possible to feel so awful.I didn't blog or introduce myself as I felt I would be in the same place in a years time. But I'm not.
I have clawed my way out often kicking and screaming. I've had great friends and family to support me and have done things I never would have thought possible.
I often still feel hurt and lonely and still have to sell my home and sort out finances, I wont do well of course.

However on Monday I start my next great challenge and this time I'm going to blog it, good or bad.
So thats me age 53 taking a career break and off to India for 3 month. (never been anywhere on my own before)
If I can survive the s...t thats been thrown at me in the last 9 months I can do anything, I HOPE!!!!!!

Megan

Go for it!

It just gets better. From the depths of dispair, my life has got better and better

It is over 2 years since I found out about my still ex2b's affair and 21 months since I moved out.

You are capable of anything you set your mind to as you are in control.

And we will all still be here when you get back

Mon

Good for you, wish I had the guts.

Wishing you a really fantastic trip, can't wait for the blogs.

Take care and have fun

Mad x

What a fantastic post! Have a wonderful experience and I definitely agree with you on overcoming fears. I am dealing with what I can only imagine is the worst pain that someone can experience (other than the death of a child which I can only imagine has to be the ultimate pain) but it has made me realise that alot of fears that I thought I had didn't exist. Even silly things like I had a phobia of driving on motorways - I have conquered because I think to myself nothing can be as bad as what I have endured.

I hope you have a wonderful, enriching experience. Keep us all posted!

Linda

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Megan - translated from ye olde welsh phrasebook, means

Heart of an Angel, balls of steel

You go for it Megan! I am so impressed by your determination to go after your dream. I am sure that you will more than survive, and you will undoubtedly help a few people on the way. Because that is you.

Can't wait for the blogs. You take care and remember to pack your emergency red wine rations

Take care of yourself and hoping you have one of the best experiences of your lifetime.

Good luck - be thinking about you

Mike

Megan

respect

GM

the young ones use this term, in old world speak it meant something, and in new world speak it does too, live life to the full, and dont ever ask yourself did I deserve it coz you didnt....

Hi Megan

It was great reading your post,I'm in a similar position to you but not as quite far down the road. I just wanted to wish you luck and happiness. You've proved there is a wonderful life waiting for you after you've travelled through the darkest tunnel. Enjoy yourself and keep us all posted.

Jenny
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