just when i thought.....

...it was going to be ok, reality just hit me like a steam train.

short marriage of 3 years, together for 5, know each other for 12.

up and down relationship and deep down i know we should never has got married. have had crisis talks routinely during the marriage but just carried on.

we agreed to get divorced last monday and i moved out. i have come back tonight to see our daughter (wife staying at friend's house for the night) and i have just gone to pieces.

whole relationship was built around daughter and the reality of missing out on so much with her is killing me.

i have this huge fear of forthcoming emptyness and being alone.

i dont think i have ever felt so bad in my life.

help.

ps - just realised this isnt the depression forum so pleased to meet you all.

now pls help.

Divorce is akin to bereavement and there are huge amounts of grieving to be done.

There are no short cuts. I could say a lot of things like "it will get better" and "later on you will realise that good things have come out of this" etc

but 7 months after I split up from my ex I am low myself tonight. I'v done 7 months worth of counselling and been on anti-depressants. I've cried rivers, gone out, stayed in, been sociable, been lonely.

It's just a cr*ppy time. You need to focus on being as ordinary as possible for your daughter.

You'll need to stay strong for your daughter, she's probably missing youas much as you miss her.
Like NoRegrets say, ending a marrriage is like a death and you need to grieve over it to be able to move on.
If your ex and you are divorcing reasonably amicably, by the sound of it, maybe you will be able to work out 50/50 care of your daughter?
So hugs to you, but get busy, get practical (like getting a new place where your daughter can come to visit and stay), exercise, get a new hobby, whatever but keep busy, don't sit around getting more and more down.
You have a lot to live for.
xx