Hi everyone - I am separating after 30 years.

Yes - they are 26, 23, and 14! So they know whats going on - especially the younger two as they still live at home.My husband isn't a bad person , its just a variety of issues for me , like bad communicating ( I've tried so hard to change that!) , being a television addict , not listening etc.All of this has gone on for so long now and I feel as though I need a break. He has always been the main breadwinner , and has worked very hard - as he keeps telling me I have always liked spending it too much as well - he is always stressed and angry (I suppose a lot of it is because he works such long hours). But I have always tried so hard to earn when I could and have brought the children up well , which is what we agreed when we got married.
My 23 yr old daughter who I am very close to , is moving out at the end of the year as she has managed to get on the property ladder with her lovely boyfrien , so I am thrilled for her of course. But it is all life changing stuff for me - next year I will be fifty as well and I am starting to feel that it wont be long before we are just the two of us - that thought scares me as I dont think we can be happy together.

Hi, Holistic,
I'd been wondering how you'd all been getting on this weekend. Just logged on to see if you'd posted something.
I'm so pleased for your daughter, to have found somewhere to live and with someone you approve of as well.
Were YOU able to get a bit of calm whilst you were in the house on your own this weekend?
Sorry things didn't seem to work out too well on their trip,but it is still early days yet for everyone to come to terms with the new situation so they will be unsettled.
As I said before, my son aged 28, who's lived away from home for years, was and is still devastated by our split.
Just a thought - do you think it's worth your while thinking of trying Relate or similar?
Thinking of you,
abi

Hi - I am going to Relate this week again on my own - he did come once but I honestly feel that a trial separation is the only way to truly find out what lies ahead - I think it will at least show him that i am serious. He is staying at my daughters house for two weeks while they are away so at least we can both have peace and time to reflect!
I honestly keep wondering if i am going a bit mad sometimes - can't really believe whats happening! There has been no closeness between us for a long time and sadly I don't feel anything for him in that way now.