My husband left me and my son

I remember the feeling that you have all the responsibility and desperately need a break. I asked my husband to babysit once in my daughter's whole childhood and he refused then said any other time if he could bring his girlfriend with him!
I also have in-laws who have neve contacted me sine I find out about his affair not even to ask if we are ok! Such people are no loss!
You need to get help and support, do you see a health visitor or mother and toddler group? Perhaps you could join a babysitting circle or even start one to give you a break.
You have friends here and these awful times do pass.Things really do get easier.

Part 1
most of the time, it helps when you hear other people down moments when you are going through a very sad situation... I tell you mine.. I was from a broken family. my dad left me when I'm still an infant.. my sister was 4 then. growing up seems normal for me because I was used to not having my dad around. When I reached my teen years, I've seen a lot of my peers having difficulties in theis parent's failed marriages.. maybe because they have seen their parents fights and these cause stress in the family. I have seen none..My mother went abroad to work and left us to my grandparents.. when I reached 10 yrs. old and my sister was 13 then.. my grandparents were so old so my sis and i decided to live on our own with my mother supporting us financially from abroad. We cooked our own food, wash our clothes clean the house, everything. We used to have a maid but it was very frustrating then because she knew we are only kids.. that follows lots of problems so we decided to live byourselves. my sister went to college far from our place for her course was not yet been offered in our place. She stayed in a dormitory.I lived my own.. seen her only on weekends ..very difficult.. after 3 yrs. I joined my sister in her dormitory after highschool

You've had the best advice lonely place, I hope you phone either your GP or HV first thing tomorrow.

I for one, look forward to reading how well you are doing. Take care both you and your little one.

Part 2
we have finished our studies.. My mom re-marry. My dad has his own life then.. and blessed with 3 more children not so far from my age. after few months I got pregnant to my boyfriend of 2 years.. sweet things have changed.. she treated me so cold.. 3rd party comes in.. My whole pregnancy was so sad for me.. feeling helpless, paranoid and stressful. I was so devastated but he told me le loves me and promised me to be his wife. I believed him so he brought me to his home.. mingle with his parents.. that coldness is now freezing me.. what I mean is he took me for granted.. but for some reason I stayed with him. We marry before i gave birth. things went smoothly for awhile. days before I gve birth to a healthy baby boy, my mom went home.. I thought things would be better but I was wrong. My mom treated me so bad when I was alone with her but truly caring when someone was around.. Most of the time she cooks and share it to our neighbors.. but left me nothing. She keep all the foods in her bedroom. and if she will give something for me. a pringles for instance. She will tell it to my neighbors.. and they will praise her for very so much giving. I never steal her money or jewelries but she shows me that I am NOT BEING TRUSTED. it hurts me a lot. in a forum she will neglect every suggestion I have. So I just tell it to my sister so she will be the one to suggest it. My mother will accept it and praise my sister. When my sister and I have an argument.. my mom will take my sis side. I remember that even I was still a kid, she was cold to me.. but she send us money for us to buy the latest gadget as possible. but that was it.. When I was young She would spend 3 weeks vacation every after a year then became after 6 years..
we were on our mother's house bacause my husband and I were not that financially stable yet. so I just zip my mouth whenever my mother nagged at me when my baby cries.. things like that.. i make itb a point I'll do my best in everything.. be a good wife, be a good mother, and daughter.. but to my mother.. she let me feel I was Nothing. I just let her stabbed me at my back when she say negatine things about me in my In laws, neighbors.. I just don't understand why.. When she knew my husband had hurt me physically.. she took my husband side. When my Mother in-law treated me so bad.. belittle me.. she took her side.. It was so sad that the person I was hoping to be at my side was my mom but she failed me.. these things happen when my kids during and after my 2ns son was born. I was so depressed.. my husband was working far from our place that he must stay in a boarding house and sees him only on weekends.. my relatives who have known me well was also affected and sad to what was happening to me.. for them I'm just a softspoken kindhearted person they knew. One of my confidante was my sister.. but she was always out for work.. when things really gone bad.. I've decided to be with my husband near his work place. so we rented to an apartment. 2 weeks after a very sad adjustments.. I had this nightmare.. got the news that my only sister was murdered inside her clinic.. She got 22 stabs most on her neck.. her skull was also bashed in..my confidante..was gone.. did you know the feeling of waking up again and again in your worst nightmare? dealing with these plus taking care of my young kids.. plus the insensitive husband you got? emotionally,physically,spiritually draining!

Part 3
Mom was telling me I must be the one and not my sister.. My monter-in-law was sending me message that she was so happy to what was happening to me.. my husband was always yelling me when i was thinking afar.. get upset and angry when I was still crying days after my sister was buried but what I was sure about I am making a point that i an taking care of my child very well.. as well as of my husband.. despite all of these..
time passed by.. despite of being sweet,thoughtful wife.. I am not good enough for him.. for him I have learned not to expect things from him.. he always took me for granted every wedding anniversaries we had.. no happy birthdays for me.. things like that I've learned not to expect things that you do for others. I remember I make it an effort to make him happy in every way.. in every occassion he had.. but you know what I am holding up to.. he is a good father to my sons.. but maybe things has an end.. when situations were so unfair I've learned to stand on my convictions.. to take back the pride that I had..
He was always threatening me to leave me.. he believes that I can't live w/o him that I am miserable w/o him..
maybe at some point.. when he said he was leaving.. so be it.. I gave my all.. deep inside my heart I do.. there would be no regrets.. no what ifs because I gave it all.
I belived Throughout my experience so as with the untold ones... I am strong..
I am.. time heals everything.. everything.