totally lost

god im having a shit day or two.

still got the dog, him being there has been a blessing and a curse, ok to have company but he''s a pain to walk and has stopped me finishing off the jobs round the house.

no contact from my wife still. no sign of the half a mortgage payment. i know i need to contact her but am dreading it.

have been reading "divorce busting". it covers soooo much of the things she said. been giving myself false hope again, if she''d just open herself to the idea of counselling and trying again, i know we could make it work.

i love her so much and miss her like mad. i want to see her every day. this is going to kill me, sometimes i feel death would be preferable to what im going through

Hang on in there mate: these are the darkest times for you but it WILL gradually get lighter....

I''d have loved to have had my dogs: a bit of unconditional love at the beginning goes a long way. Don''t take it for granted.

And mate....you loved the woman your wife used to be or you thought she was....of course you miss her but her actions show that she does not feel the same way....

Mag, sorry it`s so hard for you. I can completely understand, at times I also feel I can`t cope with the pain as well. But we are strong and we won`t let them beat us - we have to survive this - and we will.

As hard as it all is I have moments now when I can see as much as I love my husband for my sake I have to let go. I wish it were different and we could rebuild our life together but reality tells me this isn`t very likely - a very painful thing to accept.

So hang on in there - walk the dogs - as much as thats a tie it will get you out in the fresh air - this has helped me with my dog. Keep posting and sharing and looking at what others here have experienced have hope it will get better.

Hang on in there Mag. We are all here for you.

Keep walking the woofer, the fresh air will do you good.

I don''t really have much to say myself today as am also struggling to hold it together but keep posting if you are feeling low....

Take care ((hugs))

Kazzabell80 wrote:

Hang on in there Mag. We are all here for you.

Keep walking the woofer, the fresh air will do you good.

I don''t really have much to say myself today as am also struggling to hold it together but keep posting if you are feeling low....

Take care ((hugs))

Just sent you a ''thanks'' Kazza as your ''woofer'' description made me smile.

thanks guys,

i came home from work and the dog was so happy to see me i actually cried, think i may even miss him when he goes back to my mates on saturday.

just taking it one day at a time. i know im in a slump, but like the song said "things can only get better"

take care

Hi

Are you still in No Contact?

If so how long as it been now?

You are in Limbo, a god damn awful place have you done any "investigating" or had any more thoughts on doing so, for your own sake?